Jingga's story

i'm single... yes I am!!!

this is not my choice but God did... this afternoon i have lunch my room mate in the office named eilif.. so far we are close enough as friend to talk about personal life. and being single was topic of the day (he already get married-- it was easier for him to discuss... ggg )

this "single" is related with the moment i got scholarship. he said this scholarship was like my priority for several years and it came true... he said that maybe because the influence of my single status. no boyfriend or someone who will marry me sooner.

well his analysis might be true.. being single means i have more much 'me' time to reschedule my future. i'm totally weak last day i broke up and it is like a recovery. i don't want to be single i mean no body wanna be lonely. but i still can not meet the right person or maybe have not been found by right person. i'm not pretty and have no confidence in order to wish having a man who really love me. the last two ex boyfriend i got dump me like a rubbish just because they found another woman who prettier than me... hey where's inner beauty going??

and for next two year i promise to myself for not thinking too much about getting boyfriend. this scholarship must be end in holland and i don't wanna be dump anymore.... i don't!!!